Hey everyone, hope you guys have been doing pretty good.
I just wanted to let everyone know that Chiquis, my dog and our beloved streaming companion, has passed away a couple of days ago at the age of 21.
My love for her was unmatched, and I cared for her until the very last second.
Every time I close my eyes, I see her little face looking at me from the passenger seat while on the way to the hospital. Slowly blinking at me as she smiled.
She was fine the day before. She didn’t complain once and was still playful as ever. She just looked really tired as I was going to bed, so I decided to keep an eye on her instead.
After some blood work, the doctors delivered the news that she had multiple serious conditions that were quickly deteriorating her physically and mentally.
Shortly after that, her little body went into cardiac arrest, and we gave our permission to put her to sleep.
The last thing she saw was my family and I standing close to her.
The last thing she felt was a kiss from me on her forehead, and then her last exhale hit my chest.
I talked and caressed her until she got cold. We talked about how we first met, all that we lived through, the people we met, the places we saw, our inside jokes, and little games.
When she was a puppy I used to hold her like a baby, and she would instinctively lay her head over my shoulder, wrapping her neck around mine. Even as she grew old, this was one of favorite ways of expressing how much we cared.
So I carried her one last time, carefully laid her head over my shoulder, and swayed while wondering when we would see each other again.
It still feels so surreal, and it just goes to show how unfair life truly is, or rather, how life tends to always balance itself out.
I mean, a week full of pain, of tears, of headaches; the worst week of my life…… all to make up for 21 years filled with love and joy, alongside one of the most kindest, precious, and beautiful beings the world has to offer?
Easiest decision of my life, no doubt about it. ❤
She will always be remembered as our stream’s little cheerleader, and our biggest fan.
That being said, I love you all and miss you too. I hope that you all can forgive me for being the worst friend ever.
I rarely message you, and if we talk it’s usually because you message first, and that’s if I even respond.
Don’t you ever think that I don’t care about you. I think about you more than you realize, and love to secretly watch you grow, and have fun, even if I am not part of your world anymore.
I have been planning to come back, still.
I know I always say that, but I feel like Chiquis would like for me to continue doing what I love most, and that’s to connect with people and share a good time.
I know you may not be the same person you once were, but that just means we might be playing on New Game Plus, and we get a chance to learn about each other again.
Streaming, as a whole, changes so fast that it feels like jumping on a running treadmill, and the last thing I want to do is hurt myself or you.
In the meantime though, you take care of yourself.
Remember to laugh, and to live life to the fullest. Don’t be afraid to take risks, either. Challenges are nothing to be afraid of, and their rewards will only help you get stronger along the way.
Lastly, love indiscriminately.
You’ve heard me say it before, but people love to hate for no reason, so it’s only fair to love for no reason too. Practice makes perfect.
I can’t wait to talk to you again! (Hopefully soon!)
With much much love, your faithful friends. – AP and Chiquis ❤
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